one month before the big day

It is precisely one month before the big day...hmm...couldn't really say that I'm excited or anxious...the preparations for the wedding are still going on smoothly...

I got lots of questions from some of my colleagues like 'apa perasaan dah nak kahwin?' or 'dah bersedia ke nak jadi laki orang?' and many more...to tell you the truth, I'm not ready...

Think about it, can you really be ready or prepare for something no matter if it is a small thing or big...in reality - nobody can...there is a friend of mine who told me that she doesn't want to get married just yet because she is not ready to be a wife to someone...come on, you can never be ready for anything...let say you are going to die any moments now...when the angel of death come to take your soul, can you say things like “can you give me like one more year, there's so much that I haven't achieve in my life” or “can you come back later coz I have done lots of bad things, therefore I want to seek forgiveness first”

In the end, you can never really be prepared for anything...when the time comes, you will have to face it whether you are ready or not...as for me now, I am nervous...just thinking about what will happen, the responsibility that will be on my shoulder as well as all sorts of thing a man should do, deliver and take care of once he becomes a leader of his own family...my knowledge is limited...but I’m going to learn to give my very best as a good husband and dad for my loved ones...

p/s - just a quick announcement, many of you did ask when will be the reception in Terengganu...just want to inform you that there will be NO reception in my hometown...after lots of discussion with my family, we've decided to have only one at Asmah's house in Kota Kinabalu which will be held next month in June...so sorry for any inconvenience...