I need to write

okay...the best word to describe me is 'lazy'. I admit that since long ago, I am not a hardworking person, I always leave my work to the eleventh and a half hour, and during my time at Ipba/Qut, my first draft will always be my final one. I just don't like to write. I used to like playing console games and owned a PSone and PStwo (and later, an Xbox 360) but after five and a half year staying at ipba, I just didn't have access to those sort of things. So, I decided that my next hobby will be sleeping. Actually, it was because I always waited until the very last minute to do my assignment, and that got me pretty worn out the next day and therefore I went into hibernate mode for minimum half a day. But then, while sitting down trying to figure out what to do during a free time, I came into a self-realization (it suddenly came out of nowhere). After all the five and a half years at Ipba and even after being given a golden opportunity to study and live abroad, I never try to develop myself professionally. Especially in terms of language. At the end, I never write better because I still got a C for my assignment, just like what I got during the foundation year. Plus, I'm still not fluent in speaking. I could say that during 2 years abroad, I will only used English when talking to the lecturers and when I want to buy stuffs at stores. On the whole, I only hang out with my Malaysian (Malay) friends most of the time. It sadden me to think that I really messed it up and wasted the five and the half years. And now, when I look at my friends, most of them have become much more proficient and managed to develop themselves professionally. I need to become better so that I can be a better teacher and the ones that will benefit out of it are my pupils. A few days ago, while checking on everyone's facebook, I found that Jarod described himself as a person who love to write and confidently admit that he is good at it. Most of my friends blog but I didn't fancy the idea of blogging. To me, it is like writing a diary, but publicly. When I read some of their entries, I realized that some of them shouldn't be shown to everyone. Well, that is my idea of a dairy - you keep it to yourself. But if I were to be a good at writing, I need to write A LOT. Then, after giving lots of thoughts, I think that I should blog even I don't fancy the idea of it. It is one of the way that I could better myself in writing. Well, even if you (anyone) don't like to read my entries, I write just because I want to be good at it.